i've got frigging issues....

My mom is being impossible. my sister and I, (she's 5 and i'm 14) dont get along and she's ALWAYS on my case about it. she doesnt understand anything about me. Well, maybe if she stops being such a loud mouth and listens to me long enough to hear what i have to say, maybe she'll LEARN something anout me. My little sister is always treating my step sister and i different, usually treating my step sister like royalty. My mother sees this and so does everyone eles. They try to correct it but i wonder if it's doing me more harm than good. My step sister, who is 16 is always saying "treat Harmony the same way you treat me!" and i know she means well, but oh my freaking god, if i cant handle the situation myself, how do you think it makes me feel when you do it????? no one understands me. My mother says me and my sister will grow up to hate each other. THAT ISNT TRUE. i love my sister with all my heart, if she EVER EVER needed anything later on in life, i'd gladly give it to her. My mother was an only child so how the heck could che POSSIBLY know what i'm going through???? she tells me that she's always longed for a sibling whether it wsa young or old, boy or girl. WELL BECAREFUL WHAT YOU WISH FOR. i think we might've grown apart all because of this issue. tonight she told me she didnt care anymore and i said neither did i becuase at this point i really dont. I'M SICK OF TRYING TO BE EVERY ONES LITTLE PERFECT GIRL. I'M NOT SO DEAL WITH IT. I CANT WAITE TILL IM OLD ENOUGH TO NOT HAVE DEAL WITH ISSUES ANYMORE, IM SO SICK OF IT ALL. no one understands. noe one WANTS to understand. This is probably why i have so many difficulties in my life. nothings has every gone right. ever since i was little i;ve had to suffer and i'm not sure if it's ever gonna stop. i dont know who to turn to or how to cope with all this stress. i feel like buying an island and living there AWAY FROM IT ALL. i'm starting to feel alone and abandoned and it really sucks. why cant someone take the time out of ever so busy schedules and listen?? i mean REALLY listen???? i dont mean sit there and PRETEND to listen, all the while thinking about the argument youre gonna present, i mean listen with an open heart and an open mind???? i hate this so much i dont know whats gonna happen to me in the future. I HATE THIS I HATE THIS I HATE THIS!!!!!!!!!! god waht is going to happen to me?

I KNOW ITS THERE! GET OFF MY BACK!

My mom is such a pain. She’s always pointing out my blemishes and what not and its getting on my nerves. Like, tonight she says “You need to put some toothpaste on that” (home remedy) and I was like, “Oh my god, I know!!!” and She says, “You know what, screw you” UM isn’t that my line!?!?!!? Ugh, if peer-pressure and constant judgment wasn’t enough to deal with at school, I’ve got to have a double dosing of it at home. And I know what you’re gonna say, Talk it out. SHE DOESN’T LISTEN. The only way I can express myself is through drawings and blogging. My self esteem is low enough as it is. You wanna make it -12????

tdi and 6teen on sex?!

I was watching Total Drama Island and 6teen the other day and was really shocked at some of the content. For example, the guys from 6teen were watching a semi-porno flick and I think I’ll quote the header: “Carla is looking for more than a one night stand… she’s looking for love but with all the wrong guys” WTF?!?! And then, the blonde dude is like “DUDE! There’s s.e.x in h.e.r.e.” don’t get me wrong, it was pretty funny at the time, but then I was thinking this stuff is adult swim qualified. But hey, whever, iu mean its rated PG but still. And then there’s TDI. WHY IS THAT BLONDE CHICK WITH THE BANDANAS BOOBS SO FRIGGINS BIG?!? And why was she kissing the tyler dude under the pier??? And if I’m not mistaken, I recal her legs being wrapped around his waiste. How strange… but like I said before, I’m still gonna watch it. >:)

Awesomeness Isnt it?

hehehehehehehehe flyyyyyyy.

Universal Mind Control

Omg I love this song! Its so sooo good! It’s by Common featuring Pharrell and its sick as heck. I first heard about It on that commercial, you know the one, with Afrika Bambaataa? Its pretty good. Lots of computerized sounds and it does sound like Bambaataa’s planet rock. I really recommend this song to all music fans. Could this be the song of the week???

ARE YOU FREAKING INSANE?!?

Is what I screamed at my five year old sister as she raced across the middle of our one way street. I REALLY WANNA RING HER NECK! There’s a 10 year difference between us and that makes it hard for us to get along. Sometimes she can be so infuriating!!!! Sometimes I really can’t stand her. My mom is always threatening to stick us in the same room together to make us get along. I really wanted to beat the living crap out of her, but my mom yelled at her pretty hard so yeah, I got my goat back. Yeah me!

The Daily Event!

my sisters birthday! she's five years old. you do the math...